Processing
Aug. 31st, 2010 12:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hepburnesqueThe past week for me has been...a lot. Maybe I haven't completely processed the full effect of All The Things Happening At Once, but I'm getting there.
24th: Found out my grandmother died
25th: Started a new job
27th: Last day at old job
29th: Attended the wake for my grandmother and helped my aunt clean out my grandmother's bedroom
30th: Attended mass for my grandmother and then her funeral
I'm not sure at this point where my emotions are taking me. I might process them quietly this time instead of collapsing into a big heap one night. Not that either way is bad. I usually break down a little when Big Things are happening in my life.
What I do know is that I'm going to treat myself gently this week. Now is not the time to go back to the gym or berate myself for being fat like I normally do. I'm going to sleep when I need sleep and tell myself that it's okay to break down and cry and it's okay if I don't cry, too. The whole gentle concept is new to me, but it's something I feel I need to do for right now.
24th: Found out my grandmother died
25th: Started a new job
27th: Last day at old job
29th: Attended the wake for my grandmother and helped my aunt clean out my grandmother's bedroom
30th: Attended mass for my grandmother and then her funeral
I'm not sure at this point where my emotions are taking me. I might process them quietly this time instead of collapsing into a big heap one night. Not that either way is bad. I usually break down a little when Big Things are happening in my life.
What I do know is that I'm going to treat myself gently this week. Now is not the time to go back to the gym or berate myself for being fat like I normally do. I'm going to sleep when I need sleep and tell myself that it's okay to break down and cry and it's okay if I don't cry, too. The whole gentle concept is new to me, but it's something I feel I need to do for right now.
